Itch....Tch....I really want to do something....

You know sometimes there is that itch....a bit of discomfort, restlessness, etc...a need to do something...but you get so agitated that you don't know where to go- what to do and above all how to do... Off late I have realised I have become very restless - there seems to be a certain kind of unrest in my mind...really confused and well...most importantly - How do I get out of here???

There are loads of things you want to do - you list them down too. But you know how a human mind fuctions, the day we get involved with our usual work - we forget what we wanted, what our heart desired, and where do we exactly want to go.

We have sort of become slaves to work, to time - I know many writers, great philosophers have written about this - but I sort of cannot get out of it...the time when I took break did I realise I can go to work without actually putting my heart or being emotionally attached to it...but its all the same. I mean then work takes over us, and we become slaves again...coz we carry the same work home. And the stupidest excuse we give to ourselves is well, its work, you just cannot put it off...yeah really??? Wow...am so dedicated...this is a foolish satisfaction that we give to our heart...convincing ourselves emotionally...

Someday they seriously need to introduce a Nobel Prize for working like a dog or a donkey...whatever they find suits better...probably coz there is less of that bunch...and perhaps more of them...again human psychology rules... We think we are the only 'person' doing it...nobody else will be able to do it...than ME...

Phew...again the mind diverts, travels its own journey, comes back to square one and then wanders off....till it finds the right track....

Am off....to find that track...you find yours....ever became successful do let me know...am dying to know that myself...

Will write a book someday on the same....

Well, It sure wasn't me......

How many times have you been caught by your bosses doing nothing wrong, but they feel that you are upto something - lets use the word -'wrong'??? How many times have you done your work like you really really really care and then have also got scolded for the same stupid thing??? I mean when its done, people just don't care thinking well, it isn't done....and when you do it, they just raise their arms and shrug and say - 'BIG DEAL'.... and this time it wasn't my fault.

Am sure many of you might or may (and 100% must have been on such a situation) where your bosses always want to probe or prod or whatever - till now I haven't been much in the limelight...and as you know when you are not there - you feel - 'Oh, maybe am not important', strange how one situation where your boss questioning you makes you feel like - 'Why me?' - strange case of a human mind no doubt.

Anywayz so I was been questioned, again questioned...and when there was no conclusion - I was been told to meet - well I went down for a walk (not that there was anything to do with the walk) but still went ahead...read some books (realised that BATMAN is good to read - now that sure is stored at the back of my mind) and then came back...and am still SULKING...and am very much still SULKING...sheesh when will this stupid habit of mine go...I mean if am right what do I have to care in this world???

But yea...the fear lurks behind this mind, at the same point of time there is that confidence that the mind is trying to build...

Let it build it all... Will let you know of the OUTCOME...the end result of the same.