And am BACK!!!

Wow!!! After a long long time am finally getting to write....and it feels strange coz there have been loads of changes during that period. Today was not particularly a good day....I mean I don't know if I woke up from the wrong side of the bed....but yeah...guess will remember this day in years to come... I blew up my whole cooking - once upon a time I was been encouraged that I do make good dal, subzi, etc...now suddenly this whole day coz I ruined everything am frowned upon and looked down as if I really don't know anything. I understand everything is new to me...its just been three months and all that and I am learning but guess you do commit mistakes at least some day or the other....That's why dad says never to be so happy when somebody praises you. Everything gets ruined including your confidence...

I cried the whole evening coz I screwed up and I know if I talk to mum she will definitely tell me that some days are good some days are bad...so take it in your stride and walk with confidence...yeah thats true....but then wise words are remembered only when the whole episode gets over....strange and funny.

Its better to polish up the lost confidence rather than feel depressed especially at the first stages of pregnancy you see do not want a grumpy child who is always cribbing...am doing that already. Sigh! So lets get up dust off our pants and backside as well coz the fall will be steep and there will be loads of pebbles along the way...it is for you to brush them aside and get up with a smiling face....as they say Smile and the world smiles with you, cry and you will cry alone! Which did happen I was all alone crying with nobody to sit beside me and tell me its going to be okay, especially when you are at your in-laws place. Comparisons will be drawn, people will talk but its okay. Always hold your head high and not low you will fail that way!

Take this day as a lesson create a new chapter tomorrow for yourself so you have something to share with your kids someday how their mum always cried when she was been told that her cooking wasn't too good!

I am a ROCKSTAR and will always be one!