Am just having the Monday blues!!!! Somebody help me.........aaaaahhhh....

Yea the title says it all and it also vents out my frustration, my worries, my anger and everything and anything under the sun that spells NEGATIVE!!!! I am somewhat under the negative charm (if you can call that charm!!!) coz its just bitten me and am like if I could only draw and tell you ...:( completely down feel like adding more of them...:((((( yea thats better yea but the blues are coz of dozens of stuff going around me....let me see, am I not opening up??? I do not know....for which I tried contacting my best friend Mr Ninad...but you see he is of no use even if do remember his number by heart!!! Guess if am lost in some La La Land I will never ever get in touch with him!!! Oh Heaven only save me...Yea so like I said it looks like am put under that spell...and its just bothering me as hell.....or is it just some sort of a bad hair day??? Aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh wish I could really scream that loud!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH from the top of the mountains!!!! thats what I feel like doing now......and yea there is nobody to save me from my own dilemmas except me myself! and I do hope to do that soon coz this is really bugging me...I am not the kind of person who would love to stay down and out for a longer time...I mean get a life and get going! I mean I never look at the brighter side of life...even if I have got the brightest things...I always feel have got so little with me...which is just so....bad!!!! why do I have to feel that way....why cant I just say life's a party! Life's a joy....but what the heck...its always a gloomy picture that I present myself with!!! Which is making me feel bad! Why should I have people around me to make me happy....having a good job, good family or good stuff around me...isnt just that fine??? Why should I always have a reason to be happy?? Why cant I just stretch my lips and smile (stretch at a cost that they dont hurt me - and its comfortable doing it) hell...am even gettin in touch with loads of them...why cant I just open my arms and fly!!!!!! I mean really really really FLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!So thats there.....Phew!!! I just kind of spilled that out!!!

I just looove the LYRICS of this song!!!

For the first time after listening to U2's 'Sometimes you cant make it on your own!', I heard 'Miracle Drug' today on my way to office...and my ears sort of got attracted to the lyrics itself! The song goes like this....

I want to trip inside your head
Spend the day there...
To hear the things you haven't said
And see what you might see

I want to hear you when you call
Do you feel anything at all?
I want to see your thoughts take shape
And walk right out

Freedom has a scent
Like the top of a new born baby's head

The songs are in your eyes
I see them when you smile
I've had enough I'm not giving up
On a miracle drug

Of science and the human heart
There is no limit
There is no failure here sweetheart
Just when you quit...

I am you and you are mine
Love makes nonsense of space
And time... will disappear
Love and logic keep us clear
Reason is on our side, love...

The songs are in your eyes
I see them when you smile
I've had enough of romantic love
I'd give it up, yeah,
I'd give it up
For a miracle, a miracle drug, a miracle drug

God I need your help tonight
Beneath the noise
Below the din I hear a voice
It's whispering
In science and in medicine
"I was a stranger
You took me in"

The songs are in your eyes
I see them when you smile
I've had enough of romantic love
I'd give it up, yeah,
I'd give it up
For a miracle, miracle drug

Miracle, miracle drug

Endless TV BABBLE!!!!

The other day I was just surfing channels when this news channel caught me by my eyeballs!!! It said, "17 log ko bus ne kuchal diya" (17 people run down by a bus) okay it seems the Blueline bus in New Delhi sort of ran down on some people who died on the spot! That was digestable....then when I surfed back to back to another news channel..came up with "16 log bus se RAUND diye gaye" okie...third news channel gave, 13 people to be dead...okay forget the number of casualty but off late news channels come up with vocabulary that does not catch you by your eye balls but tugs and pulls your collar shaking you up to actually hear and see them! Its like the more dramatic you make it the more people will watch them while they express their viewpoint - not news.

Guess when they recruit these people, while auditioning, they must be seeing for how much anger can you show, no no... no...not anger how dramatic can you be, how good are you with your shudh Hindi (mind you am not accusing Hindi language) rather use words which emphasise lot of attention! Gone are the days when news were said with straight face. In fact I think they hire people who could keep such a face. Coz they didn't have to feel the news let the viewers feel what they could. The least they could do was just smile. Just a centimeter smile thats it!

Some common phrases which anchors/reporters/keep repeating....

"___ Channel pehli channel thi us sthan pe pahuchne wala ... aur hum aapko bata rahein hai....(We are the first news channel to reach the spot and break this news to you...)

"Aur jaise aapne dekha yeh koi mamooli baat nahin hai....etc etc...etc...not to forget their heavy vocabulary!

P.S: Please forgive me since all I remember is the heavy language and more than that I was concentrating on their facial expressions, so if you can remember more phrases do let me know! :)

To see or not to see a Psychologist!!!!

Today's news shouted from the top of their pens...."Sreesanth needs to see psychologists"...yea right! And you expect Sreesanth to come and sit in front of you while he rattles off why he feels like 'abusing', 'nailing' or being angry with all the other players in the field! In fact Sreesanth himself said he's trying to improve himself, bring changes in him, etc...so then why does he need to see a psycho when he knows he has some problem and he's trying to curb it. And for heaven's sake! He isn't some killer on the run! Tennis superstar John McEnroe, former World No.1 tennis player also had temper problems when he played, and this guy did damn well! So what's wrong when Sree does it? Yea its true if he shows this aggression as a player and I mean professionally. But should not take it on personally.

And who says the Australians are the kind gentlemen at heart or who get hurt so easily by these actions. They will get back if they have to and there are no two ways about it! And even we have seen their on-field action and I do mean 'action'! At least we have a player who does not chew his nails when he feels we will be losing out soon enough but someone who fights back!

So please leave the youngster alone and let him do his own evaluation as to what he needs to improve and I don't think there is anything wrong in him. Heck! The guy admitted he is highly (if that pleases you Mr Psychologist!) highly-aggressive!

So be aggressive Sreee...only do not take it personally be cool yet aggressive! And we love watching your actions on field!