Pre Marriage Blues Part II

Okay, so I am blogging after a looong time....but am blogging at least. Tomorrow is April 1st...which doesn't sort of cool my senses or calm my nerves (not that somebody is going to make a fool out of me on this 'auspicious day') but apparently my marriage date is set on April 27th - which is the reason that I have begun to feel all sorts of different emotions at one go. You name it I got it! Nervous, excitement, happiness, sadness, angry - Wow!!!

Shopping is on - though not everything listed is purchased. Have given myself a three day break - and am not active at all! The sarees that I purchased well have got seven of them already! Now I have to learn how to drape them - can't expect somebody to come and do it for you. One thing my elder cousin told me was to learn everything on my own. Be independent. Learn to be strong and rest will follow. Then you know how the feeling is - you feel you just have a few days to stay at your parents home so enjoy as much as you can, get pampered, etc, etc...But I guess maybe practising to be strong, to be independent starts here....

Trying to learn yoga (completely this time) wouldn't want to end up looking fat even after marriage or for that matter put on that extra weight. Meditation is something which can help me as well. Have got several advices as to going to a massage parlour so that your skin glows on your D-day. Am trying to myself motivated - but thats easier said than done. No longer do I try to feel happy, try to feel special something or the other crops up to dash it off.

And in this state of mind - negativity make its way - guess its just waiting around the corner to catch hold of its next victim (not that its difficult to find victims, but the more the merrier) and its also easy to make yourself feel - Oh poor me, how will I go through this, how will my relatives be? There is precisely no end to this.

Watch out for this space coz you might just get to read more of my roller coaster emotions or my pre marriage blues! Wish me luck!

Pre Marriage Blues - Part I

Okay....so whoever said that getting married is the most easiest thing to do in life must have eloped or must be dumb to say that (sorry to say that but couldn't help it). While its true that the real picture comes after you get married - just taking the first step could probably be well, shaky. As for me well will be getting married in a month - and there are all sorts of emotions that are running through my heart, different sort of thoughts running through my head. All I know is that I want to be really really happy when I get married and even after marriage. Take that extra effort, do something that I haven't really done. As Buz Lurhmann says, "Do something that scares you", probably not every other day. But yeah I mean when I look back at my life there are few things that I do regret. But then as they say if you do not make mistakes - you cannot be perfect. In fact these very mistakes help you to be perfect....

But its like that, a different phase taking place. And though am nervous as hell coz I will be leaving my safe and warm zone and moving to another zone, its going to take time to adjust to that whole new world. Coz I haven't stayed with my relatives let alone mingle with them so..... And the very fact being that I have always stayed in touch with my friends. They mean everything to me. So....well. Lets see.

Anywayz...so thats that every other day I keep on giving a philosophical talk to myself to motivate me to keep myself ready for whatever will happen in the future. So am trying to brush it off my shoulders.... Breathe in...Breathe out....Gosh!!!! Will keep you posted on whats happening....haven't started out with shopping as yet...so.....will let you know the first item on my list!