No matter, how much you do not want to....you just have to FAKE it! Its like you have no choice at all! Whether its a smile, a laugh, loving somebody or for that matter even an orgasm. Haven't you heard that - on how many times you need to fake it to reach to the top! :)
Anywayz, I think my time too has arrived that I need to fake it too....no matter what. No not the orgasm part. But even a smile. Which till date I have not yet succeeded...a cold shoulder is what I need to give...Gosh! How I wish I was cold-blooded! Just the look is enough to freeze anyone in their place. So from now on, all you will see is that smile which goes hmmmm.....but my only concern is that I hope I don't lose out the real 'ME' somewhere in the act of faking so much so that I am confused in who's the real ME!!! But then that too or there too lies the art of doing it effectively, without posing any harm on oneself.
The need thus arose, coz am just too tired of getting hurt, being emotional, trusting somebody and then trying to get up and trying to find a 'better person' to lead better lives....SIGH!!!! and a big SIGH! to that...coz I do not want to get tied along with somebody...
Today is day 1 for experimenting with fakism....lets see how far I go....hehehehehee....or maybe not too far...I may just come back...(considering the success ratio) :)) coz the heart is always involved...maybe I just need to settle in with however I am...spread my hands out and say...u wanna welcome me...do that or just F*** off!!! You really have no right to rule my life...coz I decide that!!
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